finally...

September 13th 2005,

I saw my surgeon today and though my infection is still there and i'm still badly swollen my surgeon has agreed that I can go back to work. We feel that going back to work will help me in many ways. He also said that he has noticed that i'm not as happy/bubbly as I normally am, I said that i'm in too much pain to be happy and cheerfull all the time and i'm tired of fighting something that I can't win. Not to mention the fact that I feel like my life is on hold, i'm only 20 years old and have so much things to do and see but feel like my life is on hold.

We all agreed that I can go back to work but to take things slowly and if think that i'm not ready to go back then I shouldn't go back just yet.